Random thoughts in January 2023

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  Image description: a Bitmoji cartoon of me,
  a chubby, fair-skinned, green-eyed,
  brunette-with-gray person wearing blue winter clothing
  and smirking; the caption reads "challenge accepted!"

  I am very glad that my younger child's usual food craving is canned green beans. Note: get more canned green beans.

• I wish Apple had a way to put ActivitySharing notifications in their own folder. I love the kudos and well wishes, but it would be nice if I didn't have to scroll through them all to get at my regular texts, like hey-could-you-pick-up-some-milk and the like.

• And on that note, I yogaed too hard and too fast yesterday. I'm a little sore in spots. Nothing slower and more controlled yoga (plus ibuprofen and a hot shower) can't cure.

• I see that the apples and oranges comparisons are fast and furious this weekend.

• Inazuma is zappy. Piemon is still a menace. It made me feel anxious, so I went back to Liyue for the Lantern Festival.

• The voice actors and event themes in Genshin Impact amuse me. Yesterday's gameplay was all Mulan ("Let's get down to business") and My Hero Acadamia (in Bakugo's voice) and Tangled (floating lanterns).

• I called a cartoon character a brat yesterday. And it wasn't even Caillou. Or Junior.

• Or Piemon.

• I have paperwork to do today.

• And laundry.

• And assisting with Lizzy's Finals Week prep.

• And assisting Abby with her paperwork for school.

• That's... well, that's it. A day (off) in the life.

I Am Having a Day

Image description: a Bitmoji cartoon of me,
a chubby, fair-skinned, green-eyed, brunette-with-gray
 person wearing blue winter clothing
and looking uncomfortable, with the caption UGH.

Nothing bad, just One of Those Days™.

A Day when I hit every red light and ended up behind every school bus or garbage truck.

A Day when I don't feel ill, but I feel worn down.

A Day when I feel guilty for not being able to do All The Things™ even though I know better.

A Day when I feel guilty because my problems really aren't all that big a deal in the grand scheme of things or compared to others' problems... even though I know better there, too.

I loathe these kinds of days.

I've spoken before, both here and on Vocal, about how much I struggle with not being able to find a reason to point to regarding minor upticks in anxiety or depression or Those Days or whatever. I hate it. Hate being unable to find a solid trigger for this crappy mood.

I know it's irrational; sometimes moods just happen. I've said so myself, not too long ago. I mean, it doesn't have to have a solid, point-at-able trigger; it could have one I haven't registered consciously, like hormonal shifts or allergens in the air or last night's change in the weather. It probably does.

But I don't have to like it.

So there.